Go and check out his songs. You can download the songs straight from his website. Try to download his mini album “I’m Not Getting Any Slimmer, So Here We Go” to taste few of his works before you downloaded his two albums. My fave so far is “Adelaide Sky”, “After The Rain”, and “Don’t Look Back”. The last two is in his latest album “Forget Your Plans”.
]]>“I’ll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me”
Here’s to a new beginning, a new chapter, a brand new story 
2011 was a blessing. Work was a struggle (ain’t they always!), a few great vacations, some new friends, some people who came and left mark in the heart, a wish that came true on my birthday, a new experience, a different kind of Christmas, and a way to end the year.
I don’t have many resolution for 2012. Losing weight has always been on the top priority but it never really been accomplished :p Just hoping my solo Japan travel will be okay, see ARASHI in person, and a happily-ever-after never hurt 
May the force be with us all *peace*
]]>The second paragraph caught my attention because there were Mr. Wayne as in Batman mentioned. And I do agree with the writer’s friend when she said she much prefer Bruce Wayne. Not just because he’s rich and Clark Kent is an alien, but Batman just has this soft spot in my heart amongst the many many super heroes out there. Alien or not.
I remember one conversation about super heroes with this guy I was dating. He was lecturing me about the many world of DC and Marvels and etc. I think the conversation started with Captain America and the rumored The Avengers movie. I do like comics, I dig Wonder Woman
as my childhood heroes, but I never really care where they’re coming from DC or Marvels or any other kind. But I can tell you I’m not that familiar with Marvels heroes like Thor or Green Lantern or The Avengers.
So in between all the lecturing I got, He made clear that he loves Superman. He is his idol, you can say. Then who is my favorite? Batman. I didn’t have to think to say that. i have loved him since forever, and I don’t think I’ll stop anytime near
Why Batman? Because he’s human. He’s someone you can meet in your daily life, he can get hurt, he can die of natural causes, he’s only as strong as his suit and his gadgets. He compared him to Iron Man. “Iron Man is far more richer and powerful and his equipments are far more sophisticated”. Well, perhaps if I had known Iron Man aka Mr. Stark many years before. Too bad I only knew him couple years back, and my heart was already set on Mr. Wayne.
Let me share with you why the humanity of Batman is important to me: because they all make him real. He’s not an alien from outer space who cannot die without the help of Kryptonite. Behind everything else, he’s just a human. He’s real. He’s a human who’s angry and hurt by the world and trying to take justice in his own hand. He doesn’t have superpowers, and that’s why I love him. But I guess boys would never get this. They all are too enchanted with the idea of a super man to get it :p
That’s why I’m not looking for Mr. Perfect. Mr. Perfect might be a superman, but I’d rather have someone who’s real
pertama, menurut gue ga ada yang namanya part-time mom. being a mother is a 24/7 job and it’s a lifetime contract. jadi marilah kita perbaiki pertanyaannya: abis married dan punya anak masih mau kerja?
sounds better kan?
jawaban gue: mmm… belum tau, tapi kayanya tetep kerja.
jujur, makin nambah umur gue malah makin ga yakin. dulu waktu masih mudaan gue bisa bilang dengan tegas kalo gue bakal tetep kerja. 100%. sekarang malah around 70-80%. kenapa? karena makin ke sini makin banyak pertimbangan. dan keyakinan gue untuk meng-handle jabatan supermom makin menurun seiring pengetahuan gue soal motherhood.
ga gampang loh jadi orangtua. seperti tadi gue sebut, it’s a lifetime contract. kita ngebesarin manusia, bukan boneka, bukan hewan. tanggung jawab tentang gimana jadinya manusia itu nantinya ada di kita. an awful lot of responsibilities you cannot look with one eye.
belakangan ini cukup banyak ngeliat pengalaman orang2 (deket atau jauh) yang udah berstatus orangtua. gaya parenting pun beda-beda. kadang miris juga ngeliat baby yang malah nemplok ke susternya dari pada ke nyokapnya. atau baby yang malah lengket banget sama bokapnya, pas digendong nyokapnya jadi nangis. gue ga bisa nge-judge kalo working-mom itu mengorbankan anak2nya. nyokap gue working-mom koq, and i am proud of it. true, gue pernah ngerasain full-time perhatian dia ke gue selama 5 taon, saat gue baru lahir dan dia ga kerja, tapi gue sangat bangga dengan nyokap gue!
yang bikin keyakinan gue goyah banyak. salah satunya… i love babies so much ya tho i haven’t had my own, dan it’s kinda amazing to see their growth. gue beruntung punya beberapa teman yang melahirkan di periode ga jauh beda dan sering ngumpul bareng. dalam kurun waktu beberapa lama kita ga ketemu, nanti ada kabar kalo si a udah bisa ini, si b udah bisa itu, dst. gue pun seneng banget begitu si a udah bisa guling2, trus besok dia udah mulai merangkak dan jalan.. nah menurut gue there are so many moments in a child life that would be ashamed to miss. racauan pertamanya… pertama kali dia telungkup, pertama kali merangkak, langkah pertamanya… rasanya so many firsts you might miss if you don’t spend it 24/7 with him/her. time flies so fast and i don’t wanna miss anything!
ah, jadi sentimental gini. padahal rencana married aja belom ada hahahaaa… XP
]]>lagi super stress karena kerjaan, tapi ga bisa ngapa2in juga jadi gue ngeblog aja. dan makan. udah nge-rant soal kerjaan di LJ, jadi sekarang gue ngomongin yang laen aja kali yee…
errghh.. apa yah? oh ya.. setaon lagi lewat… angka di umur nambah satu lagi. puji Tuhan deh masih dikasih satu tahun lagi
tadinya gue pikir ultah tahun ini bakal jadi yang paling ga spesial. dari bulan kemaren gue malah wishing semoga ga ada september. dari 31 agustus mudah2an besoknya 1 oktober. serius. saking gue bete banget waktu itu hahahaaaaa….. terus awal-awal september ini emang masih ngeselin koq. dari bulan lalu kerjaan masih aja ada masalah (ga pernah ga ada masalah gitu lohh), terus ada beberapa personal issues i have to deal with, dan they came like waves. kaya ga ada abisnya, yang satu belum selesai ada lagi yang lain. and the only thing i was looking forward to was a dinner plan on september. that was my happy place where i went when everything else were crumbling down. terus tiba2 my happy place ilang. plannya 90% terancam batal, dan i have nothing else to look forward to. gue udah yakin seyakin-yakinnya kalo bulan ini bakal jadi the worst month ever. and i liked september so so much! tapi turned out it wasn’t so bad. yet :p unexpected calls di pagi-pagi buta surprisingly cukup bikin ultah ini spesial. walau telponnya putus2, nge-lag, and we both were kinda sleepy, lumayan nge-boost mood lah.
“and that’s why i smile. it’s been a while since everyday and everything has felt this right.” - smile, avril lavigne
ulang taun kali ini cuma ada one wish (of korz you can all still send me gifts shoes if you’d like to ;P). i’m only asking for a couple minutes of your time. satu jam/tiga puluh menit/enam puluh detik, either one is fine. saya cuma mau ketemu kamu. itu saja.
“Wahai Tuhan, jangan bilang lagi itu terlalu tinggi”- Curhat Buat Sahabat, Dee
entah berapa kali kata “kangen” itu terucap, tapi mungkin kamu ga sadar just how much truth in that word when i said it. sometimes i thought you know, but i can never tell. so many more miles ahead, and this look like a road to nowhere. but you know babe, i’m saying the truth when i said i’d watch the worst movies in the world with you. hell, i’d watch horrors if it’s with you (and you did manage to get me to -_-). it’s not hyperbolic, it’s the truth. i maybe not the expert, but i’ll try my best to work things out. to take the risk. as long as you’re also trying. i cannot guarantee that it’ll be easy, heck no. i have faith tho, that somehow we can get thru it together. are you willing to take the jump?
]]>“Have you ever thought that maybe, you belong with me?” - Taylor Swift
It has been a long time since I update this blog (really update and not just posting song lyrics), I can see the dust piling up! Okaaaayyy… here goes the boring story of my life!
I got myself a new job (new as in almost a year), finally stepping out of my comfort zone. This new job is umm.. pretty challenging in some ways. Though the money’s not even half good as the previous one, it’s still a legal job. In some ways, I think I traded the money for my own life. I have more social life now, I can go places, lots of interesting things. You don’t know freedom until you taste one, LOL.
There are some new people in my life. New stories, new lessons as well. And apparently you can’t have too many lessons about backstabbing ^^; I dropped my guard down a bit and boom! A dagger to the heart. One can’t have too many precautions these day. Especially when it comes to the matter of the heart.
Even with so many new people, some ghost from the past seemed to make a return. Life sure has a funny way to bump someone into your life, repeatedly. Seriously, it’s not enough that I have to see your name in some random emails, I have to bump into you in the middle of the overcrowded station in the most crowded time in another country? Freakin’ scary. And those unexpected chats? Feels like every time I managed to get you out, you find another creek to come back in. Super scary.
Not that I blame you. The timing was bad, but then again, our timing was never that good. It’s just I am super tired dealing with testosterone, and you showing up was equally shocking and scary and almost too good to be true. You won’t mind the precautions, do you? After all, I don’t think I’ll survive another fall.
Even more now that I think I’m pretty much almost losing one of my best friend. Well, LDR was never our strong points, but we’ve managed what.. 10 years? That’s pretty damn good for a friendship that’s been built over different continents for more than half of it. But eventually, I realized how close we are to an ending. I’ve been told to try to rely less on him, and perhaps it is time. His got a whole set of friends and life I never knew of, so do I. Someday he’s gonna have his own family, and much as I wanna fit in the picture… a girl friend never wins from the wife. No matter how “platonic” they are.
Ten freakin’ years.., and bam! I’m forgotten. First it was forgotten birthdays, then the girlfriends caught too much of your time, and of course there are always works. I miss my waste-bin. Now that the ghost is back, to whom am I going to share now?
So you see… I’m pretty much “occupied” now, figuring certain things in life, and the job (why the job never get easier =.=”) I am so much grateful for one week holiday (that’s sadly ending). I get to run away for a while, get to have me-time (mostly cuddling in bed watching dvds), clear my mind. I’ve accomplished 3 season of Castle, 6 episodes of Ouran, and 1 episodes of Hustle season 7. Not to mention Glee Project I watched on TV (Cameron, i <3 u!). Now it’s time to go back from the cave and face reality. And damn, reality sucks!
]]>I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me?
Would she go down on you in a theater?
Does she speak eloquently?
And would she have your baby?
I’m sure she’d make a really excellent mother
‘Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn’t able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you’d hold me
Until you died, till you died?
But you’re still alive!
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know!
You seem very well, things look peaceful
I’m not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity?
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her?
‘Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn’t able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you’d hold me
Until you died, til you died?
But you’re still alive!
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know!
‘Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I’m not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else’s back
I hope you feel it… well can you feel it?
Well, I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know!
–Alanis Morissette
I’m so in love with Haley’s cover version of this song in AI2011 top three that I was devastated she didn’t make it to top two :’(
]]>I miss the way you treated me. Like I’m mattered…
I miss the way you talk to me.. our nicknames.. the way we joked around…
I miss how you respect me, not smoking at all in front of me without being told…
I miss the nights we text and chat and those calls…
I miss your care…
Most of all, I miss how you always made me laughs…
He doesn’t.
so i took you out from the closet of my mind, recalling the past… and i laugh so hard, missing you! why do you have to be so cute? :))
the only one who can got away calling me ’sari’ :))
i think i’m fallin’ in love all over again… with your ghost :))
you said you’re the only one i can call ‘cinta’. and i did i use a lot of ’sayang’ and ‘dear’, but never that word. and i miss you calling me that :))
yes, i am laughing while remembering you. i am smiling so big writing this down. looking back doesn’t hurt anymore now.
i love you with all my broken little heart.
]]>and if destiny decided i should look the other way… then the world would never know the greatest story ever told… did i tell you that i love you, how much i really need you… tonight
One (or two) of us was recently heartbroken and the topic shifted there for a while. Surprise surprise, when I brought up the story of my dark-ages, one of them doesn’t even know who he was! And I -of course- felt a little disappointed. “After all those years I spent mourning for him, you don’t even know who he was?!” She assured me it was because she wasn’t here back then. She was in another country and perhaps we missed that topic. I don’t buy it. Really. I know we didn’t talk about it much, but since it was -probably- the greatest grief I ever had, I must have told her in some way. During those years, that subject must have been emerged. Good gracious, even a friend who’s in another continent knows!
Well, perhaps… perhaps I didn’t tell her. Which is not true! I remember telling her about him. Just before our first date. She was still here. But yes she wasn’t here when it’s over. Yeah, perhaps she forgot. It’s kinda hard to keep up with your best friend’s ever growing love story… NOT. I only have one story over the past four years, and it was always him. *sigh*
No, I’m not angry. I’m over it. I’m merely disappointed.
But maybe she’s right? I should have forgotten the past. Should I? Hmm… somehow I don’t want to. My friend told me I must be crazy not to delete all those emails about him I stumbled upon few weeks ago. Yes, I deleted all his messages long ago (when I learned that re-reading a single text can make you cry). But these emails? No, sir. “It’s hard to talk away the memories that you prize”.
When I accidentally stumbled unto those emails… my heart stopped for a second (maybe two). But -after taking a deep loooonng breath- reading it wasn’t so bad. I laughed. Oh I was so proud of myself! It was like the stamp of prove that I managed to move on. Finally! After three freakin’ years dealing with grief, denial, numbness, another denial, more grief, desperation, I can revisit those memories and instead of crying (like usual), I laugh! Oh how time helps. I still don’t think that time heals the wound, but it covered it up pretty good, to make me be able to deal with it. To live with the scars. So I decided to keep those emails. To remind me that I survived. And perhaps someday re-read it with more laughs, because that sweet memories aren’t supposed to be forgotten. I am glad it happened, now I can make my peace. Now I can really say I’m starting over
So I raise my glass, here’s to the past! That was the best thing that ever happened in my life =’)
]]>I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love
And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love